“When I am here I am focusing only on the running and nothing else. I don’t look around or look at other people. Sometimes I don’t realize that somebody has just passed me. Because I am somewhere else. When I come home I just try and forget it and focus on something else.”
Sometime late this afternoon Pranjal will become the 5th runner to reach the half way point. An event in which he will waste none of his precious energy with undue thoughts or celebration. Instead he will simply continue to focus instead on getting as many laps as he can in before midnight. The solely devoted task of his life now for the past 24 straight days.
When there is no more time remaining in the day, he will then straddle his bicycle and peddle the 4 or 5 blocks to where he stays. At that point another clock starts ticking away the precious 6 hours that he has all to himself until then he again begins his 18 hour running day once again.
Today I briefly left the tranquil sacred orbit of the Self Transcendence race and went into Manhattan to see a Dentist. The energy and dynamism of any big city is in stark contrast to the simple little concrete path that circles round Thomas Edison High school.
Standing on 5th avenue I was aware of the waves of humanity surging in countless directions around me. I was not separate from any of it either. I too was part and parcel of the chaotic life as well. But it was a shocking reminder of how these 2 worlds, just a few miles distance from each other, can be so different.
For no matter whether it is Manhattan or Vienna or Helsinki, in the heart of city everyone is busy trying to get someplace else. Important things must be done as quickly as possible and then there is a scramble and rush to go home afterwards.
When I got home, absent a tooth that I had enjoyed using for many years, and a bottle of painkillers. I returned my focus back to the race. Something that has consumed a large portion of my life as well for the past 24 days. My destination and my duty is not anywhere as arduous or all consuming as it is for the 12 runners. Neither does it require suffering of any kind. Though currently and only temporarily my jaw is not having the best of times.
But just returning to the images and sounds of the race was a sweet reminder of how different life can be when you turn your gaze to a more inspiring world. How so much can be gained by identifying with what these 12 runners are doing and how they are tirelessly accomplishing this great task. Once I returned my focus to the race I felt a sense of peace once again. Something a dentist drill and a subway ride had snatched briefly away.
I must focus only
On my destination,
And not on my mind-hesitation.
Sri Chinmoy, My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, Part 32, Agni Press, 2005