“I think that in the beginning of the race I tried to do what I do best and that was to win this race. When I came to realize that I could win the race but in doing so I would lose the experience. I decided then that I needed to finish the race. Then I changed my whole strategy.”
“After the first 1000 miles I changed everything. From there on I worked by my book. I did things according to my plan.”
Kobi had mentioned to me on several occasions that he was uncertain he could finish the race. I ask him at what point he had gotten over that. “If you had asked me 4 days ago I would have said, that now I have a 90% chance of finishing.”
“You can’t say that every day exists by itself, leave the moment, and know that you will finish. If I leave the moment so that any moment I can end the race and not finish it. You cannot be in 2 places at the same time.”
“If I come here with a position of killing myself in order to win it. You will see me 2 days ahead of where I am now, but I would finish without powers. I would just finish the race and remember nothing.”
Kobi says he has done many races where he told others that he just wanted to win but in so doing he didn’t have an inner experience and couldn’t remember anything about those races.
“To be here transcending cannot be just about doing something more. It can’t be. If it is just to run 1,000 miles three times more then it is worth nothing. So I thought to myself, I want to do something else. So when I decided to change after I had completed my first 1,000 miles. Which I did in a record time of 13 days I decided I had to live differently. Then came the change.”
Kobi had told me earlier that he felt that his whole experience here was about taking a pilgrimage. He says for now he doesn’t want to analyze or break down what he has learned and felt here by describing it with words.
“I know that I will live with this experience not just for days to come but for years to come. It is an amazing experience.” Kobi says that the usual thing for him would be to break it all done so that he can learn and improve upon himself. “But another part of me says you need to leave it and experience every moment.”
“Do not try and define it. There are a lot of unexplored corners. Slowly, I will let time take place. There is a very big healing process that I need to work through. It is an amazing experience. I believe that for years to come I will be still into it.”
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