By day 11 last year Sarah Barnett could see her dream slipping away and there was absolutely nothing she could do to hang onto it.
As one of the best ultra distance runners in the world, coming to do the Self Transcendence 3100 mile race was going to be the ultimate challenge for her. Something that she had wanted to do for several years. One, as well, that at 37 years of age she was prepared and as experienced as anyone who has ever lined up by the chain link fence near Thomas Edison high school at 6am in the morning has ever been.
She came strong and talented and she also came injured. A kind of physical problem that would not bend to her will or her wishes. An injury that would snatch away any chance of not just victory but any chance of even reaching the finish line. Causing a persistent pain that made steps hurt, laps feel excruciating, and worse yet, assuring her that the goal of finishing now lay hundreds of miles beyond her dwindling hopes.
We all like to think we can go on and endure hardship. But what courage is it that allows a young Australian woman to stand at the starting line each day for 52 and keep going around and around with nagging pain, and persistent doubt rubbing hard at your shoulders, and a goal that you now no longer can see at all.
But Sarah clearly felt something even though she could not see it. That something that said to her just this, keep going, keep going.
So she did this impossible thing in a race that even itself is impossible. At the end of 52 days she had completed 2573 miles. It was the farthest she had ever run before, and its own muted way offered her a quiet glimmering victory that was probably more important than all the trophies and awards that she has ever received in her career in ultra races.
It was something that she could not put on the shelf because it would remain where it belonged, in her heart.
Sometime today she will pass that mark of 2573 with strong confident strides. Few if any will remember that little footnote from last year.
She tells me this morning she remembered it last night but this morning had forgotten it until I brought it up. She laughs easily as she talks about it now. For now she does see a finish line ahead that is not obscured by doubt or pain. And sometime today with a tick of her lap sheet she will be charging boldly and clearly into her own realm of Self Transcendence. When I ask her about this she says, “That is what the race is about.”
I made this film several years ago. It is Called 3100 Mile Impressions probably 2009
Music by Parichayaka
In the fall of 1991 New Zealand runner Sandy Barwick ran 1300 miles in 17 days and 22 hours. She is pictured here with Sri Chinmoy and Al Howie.
Her 549 miles in a six day race in 1990 in Australia is a record that has yet to be broken. Sarah will be the first Australian woman to run 3100 miles.
Not what you say,
Not what you do,
But what you ultimately become
Is the only thing that God cares about.
Sri Chinmoy, Seventy-Seven Thousand Service-Trees, Part 42, Agni Press, 2005