“I don’t know how and why but I know there is someone who knows. God knows, so I know this is my way. I want to love God more. I want to pray more. I want to cry more for God. I want to have more purity, simplicity, and devotion. To please God in his own way. I have hope and I have faith in God, and I know that one day I will run.”….Ananda Lahari
Over last 12 days Ananda Lahari has barely run a step and yet he never stops and continues to walk on, hour after hour. His chances of completing the full distance flew off long ago and yet his cheerfulness and quiet calm commitment have not. Where many would become despondent and desperate when confronted by such a fate Ananda Lahari seems to increasingly continue to gather up inner strength and poise. Something not so apparent when you see his slight sweet smiling presence glide past.
This is his 8th summer here. Like very few others he knows all too well the challenges thrown up in front of all those who approach the starting line. On 5 previous occasions he has felt the ribbon break as he crossed the finish line. He has been applauded and cheered and had songs sung in his honor. Some years back he realized that running through a blue ribbon after circling the course 5649 times was not really why he needed to come here.
Not that he wouldn’t want to achieve this honor but perhaps more than most he is also aware of the real rewards and goals that can be experienced when you nudge and shift your focus from the glaring outer realty to the glowing inner one.
There is an obvious intensely difficult athletic competition and then there is the inner journey. One with no finish line and no obvious reward.
Perhaps if he is still clinging to one tiny desire is that he once again find the strength and energy to be able to lift up his knees and run again. But if it doesn’t happen it will not be any kind of tragedy at all. For above and beyond everything else is much larger and all encompassing heartfelt wish,’To please God in his own way.’
If you want God,
open your heart and run.
If God wants you,
open your eyes,
close your ears and run.
Sri Chinmoy, A Hundred Years From Now, Agni Press, 1974.
